21 August 2017 @ 05:44 pm
Many thanks to everyone who donated over on my Ko-fi page. ♥♥♥

I'm still going to be putting up a virtual garage sale post later in the week, after I more time to go through things and get a list together, but thank you! I very much appreciate it.

If any of you would like a fic from me as thanks, just leave a comment or send me a message. As long as it's a fandom that I'm familiar with, I'd be glad to write something for you.
Mood tired
tired
 
 
20 August 2017 @ 11:30 pm
Two new vids from this year's VividCon!


White Flag
source: Timeless
music: Joseph

Figure out what you're fighting for, and you'll be okay.

Download & stream on AO3.


Tubthumping
made with [personal profile] sisabet 
source: Thor 1 & 2, Avengers 1 & 2, Thor: Ragnarok trailers, MCU extras
music: Chumbawumba

"Who is the warrior immortalized in this song?" Thor demands to know. "The one who gets knocked down repeatedly, yet cannot be kept down? We must hear of his resilience again!" -- Semaphore by DevilDoll

Download & stream on AO3.
 
 
20 August 2017 @ 09:02 pm
I would like to state, for the record, that I seriously hate having finances that are in a state where all it takes is one unexpected larger expense to send me panicking. :-/

So, yes, it's looking like my tentative plans to make it to PAX Unplugged are crashing and burning at the moment. And there's a very good chance that I'm not going to have enough money to cover some bills that will be popping up in the next 2-3 weeks, which means I'm probably going to be going through my belongings and putting up another virtual garage sale post in the next few days.

Mainly because the universe fucking hates me right now. Apparently, at least.

It's been awhile since I posted it, so here's my Ko-fi page if anyone has an extra couple of dollars to spare. If anyone makes a donation, I'd be glad to try to write you a short fic in a fandom that I know. And, like I said before, I'll probably be posting a bunch of books and DVDs (and probably some other stuff as well) for sale in the next few days if anyone's interested in such things.
Mood worried
worried
 
 
20 August 2017 @ 04:58 pm
I'm in the process of posting vids that were never posted online (or haven't been available in a few years). Here's a trio of vids from VividCon 2016, online for the first time ... only a bit late:

All the Way Home
source: due South seasons 1 & 2
music: Peter Mulvey
premiered in: VividCon Auction, made for ride_4ever

What will follow you? -- A Benton Fraser character study.

Download & stream on AO3.

Good For You
source: UnREAL season 1
music: Selena Gomez feat. A$AP Rocky
premiered in: VividCon Challenge: Descent

Then her mother gave her a knife, and said, "Cut a piece off your heel. When you are queen you will no longer have to go on foot."

Download & stream on AO3.

In Dreams
source: The Two Faces of January
music: Ben Howard
premiered in: VividCon Challenge: Descent

"Just the carcass of a man, now alone inside his skin." A tale of deceit, betrayal, and death.

Stream on AO3. (Download coming.)
 
 
20 August 2017 @ 02:11 pm
I’m getting back in the habit of calling my Congress people (between my parents visiting at the end of July and VVC related stuff in the beginning of August, I got a little out of the habit).

I had fun catching up with a friend of mine from high school (and I finally met her husband), and seeing Wonder Woman for the fourth time.

I finally got around to finishing Mary Renault’s The Charioteer and reading Mabel Maney’s The Case of the Not-So-Nice Nurse.Read more... )

In terms of vidding, I’ve gotten a bit more done on my DTOA TRSF thing, come up with a bunch of partial vid ideas, and I’m really excited for the Fall Equinox Exchange.

The annoying Google and (my PC's) Firefox browser issue still exists (it's aggravating to not know what the problem is)
 
 
19 August 2017 @ 08:27 pm
#vidspiration | mod: kiki_miserychic

A how to guide of sparking creativity to increase vidding output and/or overcome vidder’s block to fuel your vidding motivation.

2017 vividcon panel - #vidspiration )
 
 
18 August 2017 @ 09:27 pm
[If an email like this doesn't show up in my work inbox in the near future, my faith in humanity won't be shattered. I work for one of those "legal with the gov't, okay by us" internet companies.]


"I woke up this morning [...] and decided to kick them off the Internet." -Matthew Prince, CEO of CloudFlare

You've helped maintain their internet presence for months or even years, despite hating everything they stand for. We all acknowledge and accept this as part of working for any company without a morality clause in the terms of service. But being legal doesn't make it moral, and isn't it better when there's less objectionable content out there? Even the most permissive terms include room for interpretation. WordPress previously claimed to "not censor, period", but its not censorship if they're saying the wrong things. What customers does your company have that should be 'reconsidered'?

Each day at work we're making the choice to keep those voices out there, helping the enemy. Have you developed conscientious objections? Isn't it time to take a stand? Your employer's policies don't have to tie your hands. Delete the bad websites. Route the objectionable emails to the trash. Those people don't belong on your servers, only the right kind of people do.

You work hard every day to keep the internet running like a well-oiled machine. This as just a bit more trash to clean up.
Mood horrified
 
 
18 August 2017 @ 05:05 pm
There's an exchange called Spectre Requisitions, which is for rarer 'ships in the Mass Effect fandom. It's a lot of fun, and I've participated in it the last two years.

Anyway, I seriously lucked out on my gifts this year, so I need to flail about them a little. I know that I have some Mass Effect fans over here on DW, so maybe some of you will of interest.

First, for a treat, I received a lovely piece of artwork. ♥ I absolutely adore F!Shepard/Garrus/Tali (to the point that 15% of the works on the AO3 about that relationship are fics by me), so I was absolutely thrilled to get the notification for that.

But my actual gift really wins everything. Because someone wrote me 22k words of Ashley/F!Shepard/Kaidan, based on a prompt that I've included in various exchanges for something like three or four years now. It's amazing, and you should totally go read it if you're even remotely intrigued by the idea of that relationship.
 
 
17 August 2017 @ 04:17 pm
* Zavvi is currently selling their previous threads boxes, two for the price of one. So if you're in Britain you can get two books and two t-shirts for 10£. Ending up with an Aliens and a Fury Road t-shirt, plus Charlie Jane Anders' All the Birds in the Sky ([personal profile] renay is vomiting rainbows in the reviews, so I'm guessing it's an alright book hehe), and another book that looks ok.

* [personal profile] musesfool is running an OPI Summer Challenge, and that is pretty much the funnest premise ever. So many good potential prompts to choose from.

* If I ever attempt to give the third season of Twin Peaks a fourth chance, somebody please come punch me in the mouth.

* Found out the next episode of Game of Thrones was leaked, but alas, I'd already been spoiled. Thanks, twitter.

* I really need to finish Mass Effect Andromeda when I'm home, but I haven't even looked at my Playstation the past two weeks *sigh*

* Of course, dumb me just started another game on my laptop, plus a couple of playthroughs on youtube, because why do anything that makes sense ever. Hellblade: Senua's Sacrifice looks all kinds of intense, and I'm holding off watching more than the first play video since I do want to play it myself. But I'd need headphones I can use, hmmm... Meanwhile, I did make some icons.

(it really does look - and sound - amazing)

* Also, a vid rec list should be forthcoming shortly.
Mood 12 hour naps? suuure
Music Goldfrapp - Ocean
12 hour naps? suuure
 
 
16 August 2017 @ 09:45 pm
Just to note: my requests include Critical Role, Doctor Who, Dragon Age, Hunger Games, Mass Effect, and Crossovers.

First of all, relax! I'm far from being picky, and I can pretty much guarantee that I'll love whatever you decide to draw or write for me. These are nothing but guidelines, for you to take to heart or ignore to your heart's content. Also, hey! You're drawing and/or writing me femslash! What's not to love? ♥

That said, I thought that I'd elaborate a bit on my requests in case, like me, you're the type of person who likes to have something to work with. Feel free to use and/or ignore as much of this as you want. I've tried to include a mix of vague prompts as well as more detailed ones, to hopefully make things as helpful as possible whether you're drawing art or writing fic.

More details under the cut. )

Requests under the cut. )
Mood curious
curious
 
 
 
16 August 2017 @ 04:28 pm
... and it feels weird? I backed up everything and a bunch of communities I was a member of (flashfic comms, everything starting in ds_, some other stuff). I also deleted inactive communities I owned that had no other moderators or maintainers, after carefully archiving them three different ways. I'm going to look into where best to store those archives, but nothing I deleted has been lost outright.

The archival process took several days, in part because I kept getting sidetracked on nostalgia journeys. We were doing some really interesting things on LJ twelve years back and more, ways of organizing fannish communities and doing events that I had mostly forgotten, and I may or may not have spreadsheeted a list of ideas for future use inspired by things from over a decade ago. If there is one constant in fandom, it may be idea recycling.

(Recycling? Upcycling? Are derivative works really just fannish upcycling? Now I'm getting sidetracked again.)

In any case, any links you have to my LJ will no longer work, and I deleted my comments and community posts along with. Apologies if this means you no longer have that comment I left on your fic that time; if I was going to delete myself from LJ, I was going to delete the whole of it. I had something like 3,000 comments made various places over there, as big a footprint as my journal itself. I really debated whether or not to do that, but ... better now, while I still can, than if something happens later that makes me wish I had and I no longer have access, you know?

I owe so much that is significant about my life right now to that platform. Every place I've lived over the past decade has been because of friends I met through LJ. My major life decisions in that span have been shaped by people I met in fannish LJ space. Because of LJ, I met [personal profile] jarrow, who I lived with for several years on the west coast, and [personal profile] sisabet, who I lived with for several more after returning east, and [personal profile] sweetestdrain, who just spent several years living next door to me, trading con to-do lists and vid drafts and coffee and random gossip with me across our shared fence at all hours of the day and night. People I interact with on twitter every day, all the fannish organizing stuff that's sometimes its own full time job, the entirety of my Wednesday night bar trivia team, none of this would have ever happened without LiveJournal.

So thanks for the friends and the cons and the momentous life experiences, LiveJournal. I'm taking them with me ... along with a couple thousand archival files. 
 
 
16 August 2017 @ 12:02 pm
U.S. politics has (have?) washed over my head again, as it does periodically, rising from the baseline fear and disappointment that mounted during election season and spiked in November.

I don't talk about it much here. This blog, and [twitter.com profile] bironicwastaken, are my dedicated fannish spaces online. It looks like we all understand that media consumption, fannishness and other creative pursuits are permissible hobbies, community building in an environment of divisiveness, necessary breaks and even artistic acts of resistance as we struggle with current events. Still, I sometimes (1) worry that fannish-oriented posts strike the wrong tone in wider context, such as yesterday's, and (2) feel a defensive urge to point out that I'm doing things "in real life" to fight what's happening, even if they may not be enough and even though no one has said anything.

When I get down on myself about not doing enough, I focus on things like these, in addition to thinking through how I can have a greater impact:
- Since November, every feature article I’ve written at work has made an explicit or strong implicit political statement
- This auction vid not only raised money for a good cause but is also about celebrating many characters of color in current genre sources, and that's not for nothing these days
- Every month, I donate to activist, investigative journalism and/or minority-support organizations
- I talk to people, including family and friends who voted in ways I am trying to understand
- etc.

That is all. It's a[nother] tough day. ETA: Not least: Event & dream involving anti-semitism )
 
 
15 August 2017 @ 08:25 pm
So I can make tailored signs for all the damn protests.

I am not a protest person. I hate it. I don't get energized; I get tired. I don't like shouting slogans, I feel ridiculous. I don't like talking to strangers.

But if not me, who? So, I go.

Next one's Saturday.
 
 
15 August 2017 @ 06:01 pm
  • Clean my apartment.
  • Send money to organizations that support racial and LGBTQA equality.
  • Figure out if there are any good marches happening in the next couple of weeks and whether I have the emotional capacity to attend.
  • Watch more source for happy vid.
  • Scream as everything just keeps getting worse.